To The Person I Hurt For Being Different

I hurt you. I hurt you in ways I didn’t intend to. I hurt you because people keep on hurting me. I hurt you before you could even hurt me. Before you do what they did to me.

I always believed that leaving will be everyone’s purpose. So it crossed my mind, that it will also be yours.

There I was, hurting you. Hurting the one person I trust. Making you suffer for the things I did. Making you cry for the words I threw. Making you in pain for pushing you away. Making you the bad person for the things you didn’t do.

But there you are. You came back. You came back and gather me in your arms like I didn’t even hurt you. You came back even when I’m dragging you with my problems. You came back, sit there with me and you let me cry on your lap. You came back and kiss away my pain. You came back and simply love every wrong in my life.

You came back and prove you were not like everyone else. Well, you are different. But still, I hurt you.

I didn’t see it coming. That it would hurt more hearing your cries knowing it was because of me. That it would hurt more seeing you suffer knowing I am the reason. Inspite of the hurt I put you through, you came back and try to defeat my weakness for me. You came back and fight the fight I’m having inside.

You came back. You came back and it is enough. More than enough.

I know you have your own fight, your own pain, your own problems. But you were so selfless and I was so selfish. And for that, I am sorry. I really do.

Sorry for being the absorber of every single pain I feel. Sorry for pushing you away instead of pulling you closer. Sorry for hurting you in ways people have hurt me. Sorry for being unfair. Sorry for hurting the friendship we have. Sorry for hurting you.

Most of all, sorry for making you the person you aren’t.

I would always be grateful. I would always be thankful for you being here in my life. I appreciate everything you did and everything you said. We could say I don’t deserve you, it may be true, but I wouldn’t. Because I will be my best to deserve a person like you. 

I am glad I met you. I would start to treasure you and what we have.

I trust you. And I love you. I do.

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Into Cold Turkey

 

Every moment is precious
Even with your absence
I can feel your presence

You were always there
Even a number of miles away
Is never a hindrance in any way

Good mornings and goodnights
Smileys and emojis
And stories in between

One night was all it took
The next morning sun greeted me
And suddenly I know not a thing about you